Words

Words are powerful things. They’re weapons that are pulled out in certain situations when needed and sometimes they hurt more than a hand slap to the face.

Recently there has been a lot going on  with me and the people I know. My friend’s having boyfriend troubles among other things.  I haven’t written anything here for quite a while, therefore I haven’t used this as an outlet for my feelings. So I have a lot of things bottled up.

In the past 4 months a friend of my friend died. She was beaten by my friend’s ex boyfriend while protecting her autistic younger brother. She had critical injuries and at first, it looked like she would make it. But her condition suddenly worsened and she passed away. My friend was devastated, but I helped her through.

Now, her cousin, and a close friend of mine, is in a psychiatric hospital getting help because she was found writing a suicide letter. unfortunately, I was told Thursday, and I was not able to contact my good friend, because she was in Boston doing a competition and I was not able to inform her of what was going on, until today. I was the bearer of bad news, and I had to tell her after she told me about her shitty weekend. Which it didn’t help, but she said she wanted to know.

This leads me to my next point, that I will admit, my mom just told me.

She said I need to get my head out of my friend’s drama, and that I need to stop being the bearer of bad news.

I agree with the latter, not the beginning. As a friend, I feel an obligation to stand by her side and help her. If I leave her hanging, what type of friend does that make me? That’s not a friend, a friend helps you and lends you a hand when you need. They pick your dirty ass up off the ground when you fall.

I guess it just didn’t make sense. But on the other hand, I always do end up being the bearer of bad news.

Either that, or I’m just attracted to bad things that happened.

As I’ve said before, words are powerful. When certain words are used they can be powerful.

“Whatever words we utter should be chosen with care for people will hear them and be influenced by them for good or ill.”
~ Siddhartha Guatama

With Love,

Moonie ♥