Waiting On The World To Change

I’m slowly beginning to find out that I can not save everyone.

Sometimes people have to save themselves.

And that can be a hard concept. Especially for me. Because I seem to want to save everyone.

Most of the time.

Sometimes people just don’t need saving, perhaps. Maybe they just need to struggle through the pain and learn that way instead of having someone help them.

I’m finding the less contact I have with everyone in-game, the more I’m detaching from the game and the people.

I never thought it’d end like that, I guess.

We called St****s yesterday and they said my laptop would be in 20 days or less. Yuck. I bleeped out their name in case I get flagged

I’m somehow turning into a semi-normal teenager. Only I have the mouth of a sailor. I’d like to thank Ariora and Drinks for that : P

It’s always interesting to see how people change. But it’s even more interesting when you actually take a look at yourself and look back on how you were before. I think I like meeting new people and talking to them because I like seeing how they change. And how they change me, because I’ve truly been changed by talking to some people from the game. And for an outsider looking in, I probably sound psychotic.

Ok moving on.

So for English we are reading a book called Speak. Basically its about this girl who goes through her freshman year of high school in hell because over the summer she went to this huge senior party where there was of course, alcohol. She drank some and was pretty tipsy and out of it. So this senior comes and starts flirting with her and they slow dance and he kisses her. After that she get dragged outside of the barn, where the party is and the senior rapes her.

Every “marking period” we have to write about a passage. In this marking period, the main character, Melinda, goes to a flashback to when she was raped. One of the kids in my class picked this passage and it’s disgusting to what he says. This is what he wrote. And I’m sorry…it truly disgusts me.

“….Melinda went to the senior party and got ‘raped’ really caught my attention. It caught my attention becasue the author makes it seem like she got raped when in reality she really didnt. She never physicaly told the the guy to stop or/and she never even said no or walked away, and the worst part is she never even said one word! She just let it happen and thats why it frustrates me how this novel makes her life seem so dramatic and harsh when really she just lost her viginity at a young age. thats all there is to it, no rape, no problem. What also makes it even worse is she hasnt even told anybody about it yet so no body can even help her. My opinion being Melinda never got raped because she didnt even try to resist or further more she never even said anything to the guy, so shes completly over reacting in the book and she should just get over it. I was expecting an actual rape when I herd what the book was about.”

Yes that’s really how he writes…”heard”  is now “herd.”

How could you say something like that… I know everyone has the right to their own opinion but….that’s…horrible.

On the same page….She writes how she was so drunk that she couldn’t move her tongue to talk. And when she firsts sees this guy…she describes him. And he’s huge and muscular and “Model” type.  He states she never tried

“We were on the ground. When did this happen? “No.”  No I did not like this.” She did try.

I know it’s just a book. But lately a lot of the guys who are reading this book have been complaining that Melinda is just a crybaby. DO THEY NOT UNDERSTAND SHE WAS RAPED AND SHE HASN’T TOLD ANYONE AND SHE’S DEALING WITH THE FACT SHE WAS RAPED?!?!!?!

My poor teacher talked to the class trying to explain how being raped is very traumatic ad they just don’t get it.

It’s kind of sickening and worrying to me that a lot of the boys who are reading this book don’t think this was a big deal and because she never says that she was raped, means she wasn’t raped. It’s just…sad really.

And these are the people I go to school with. Jeesh.

And if anyone wants to know my response…

“In the Third Marking Period, there is a certain part that involves the party. This passage is very disturbing and shocking to me because Melinda does get raped. No one should have to go through what she went through. I think it is her fault for drinking, but no one has the right to take advantage of someone when they are intoxicated. She was so flattered that this gorgeous senior was flirting with her she was almost quite literally swept off her feet. She was awe-struck and she was caught off guard. At one point she was dizzy and said “my tongue was thick with beer, and I couldn’t figure out how to tell him to slow down.” She was suddenly pushed to the ground and she didn’t know what was going on. “When did this happen? “No.” No I did not like this.” She kept trying to get up and saying she had to go meet a friend and she even mentioned how her parents were probably but he still continued on with his business. This passage was very shocking to me and I truly feel bad for Melinda.”

I’ll talk to everyone again soon. Before Christmas hopefully.

With Love,

Moon ♥